This has been a most refreshing day in my life despite the fact that I had only 4 hours of sleep. I feel so inspired and energized. I was so struck with the lecture we had at church yesterday. I wish this feeling would stay on longer for me.
I’m still overwhelmed and all because of these verses:
35 For whosoever will save his life shall lose it; but whosoever shall lose his life for my sake and the gospel’s, the same shall save it.
36 For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the whole world, and lose his own soul?
For days, depression gets the better of me from time to time. Being away from my family, and still no hopes with getting a job soon, I sometimes felt exhausted and helpless. I was losing my mood for anything. And then the changing weather somehow broke down my immune system. I don’t feel well for 3 days now.
I can’t explain in words so pity I can’t share why I am overwhelming now. But I just felt like I can overcome anything if I live up these verses. If I strive to do my best as a faithful servant despite all my weaknesses, despite giving up all the comforts in the world, I know I will feel peaceful with it. Because there is a reserved life waiting for us, a lifetime of pure joy. If I would live for say 50 more years, what’s that compared to infinity? I would rather sacrifice many more sleepless night than to lose the chance for that eternal life.
Life here may not always be a bed of roses. In fact, it’s more of 75% striving and 25% comfort. When we eat, we cook the food longer than it takes us to consume it. We sleep 6 hours a day, 8 if we’re lucky, and work for the rest of the hours. Life indeed is full of difficulties. And yet it’s just a very tiny fraction of the life we will inherit someday.
I’d rather sacrifice in this life now in order to follow Christ than to live in all comforts, thinking selfishly, and enjoying all the empty vices of this world. If I have to swallow all my pride for the sake of Christ and the gospel then so be it. All these are nothing, if we lose our chance to have that eternal life…